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Onitod – 07171998b_89 [ Album: Cross Reference ]

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This track was unnamed, it is a song that was written in 1998. It is a slow-paced and easy going song, which is meant to slow down, and carry your mind away from that which distracts you, to a place of peace and contemplation.

Recorded on Tascam DA-88s, through a SoundCraft LX7, it was eventually mastered on Logic Pro years later. The Ibanez guitar is run through a Zoom 9150 tube guitar effects processor. There are sounds from a Roland TR-909, JV-880, JV-1080, EMU Ultra Proteus, Kawai K11, and other wonderful synths.

The album title comes from the place of contemplating the Cross. Many times in life we live in a place of relativity. That is we think from where we are at the moment. Since every one is at a different place, we all think from different spaces. In the days before Jesus Christ, this was a huge problem, in fact that is the reason that Abraham was chosen by God. In the days of Abraham, every man did as he pleased, and as a result, there was chaos and disorder.

In this rampant disorder there was no justice, nor could there be an penalty or accountability. Where there is no reference, there is no way to hold to any kind of justice, or begin to evaluate one conclusion over another. There must be a point of reference for there to be order, justice, and a sense of direction. If there is none established, than everyone is blind .

God called out Abraham, as one who tried to do what was right, who tried to do what he believed in his heart was the right thing to do. This pleased God, because God had given him his heart, and that he followed it, was pleasing to God.

In this day and age, and over time, we are much like those who lived in the days of Abraham. There is a great deal of corruption and injustice all over the world, and through this there is a lack of reference.

To be sane, and find a center of peace in this world, we must have a reference of certainty and security, so that we may attain to self-control, and restraint, to grow and mature.

Therefore it is necessary to define in our lives a point, that does not change. This is why God says through the Bible, over and over, that He does not change. It is to give us security and certainty. That if we pursue His ways, that HE will take care of us, and those promises are as true today, as they have ever been.

If you find that your life, is lacking in security, and things are always in random chaos, and you are not in your heart liking where you are, and you wish it was better, that things could be better, and you earnestly in your heart yearn for a better way to live, then God is speaking to you right now, to come and make the Cross a reference point in your life, in fact to make the Cross, the single point of reference in your life. Seek out Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and begin on a journey, a process where you will be lead to your hearts desire, and believe me, you will find a joy and happiness that you would have never realized possible before. Allow God to work in your life, as you take shelter in His protection, and find your life transformed, in as many ways as you can imagine, even beyond what you thought possible. Be well, and take care my friend.

I have put together some preview tracks. I am about to publish 16 albums, from content that was created between 1997-2014. For the next batch of music tracks, they will feature PREVIEW on the splash screen, and so that means that this track, is one song of an album-in-progress. The track may or may not be in its final mastered form. During this preview promotion, you will get to hear a good many different styles that I produced over the years, and will get a feeling for what is coming down the pipe. All the songs are copyrighted their original content year, and the albums will be formally published in 2015. Once published I will update links on the videos to the iTunes and Amazon, and other places that they music will be available. If you would like to use the music for commercial purposes, you can contact me, and we can talk about your needs and find something that works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkiGXeBK7KE

Onitod – 09282014_107 [ Album: Every Knee Shall Bow ]

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Every Knee Shall Bow, is a track that has a chill and cool jazz feel. The song is composed of bass, classical guitar, hollow-body guitar, featuring vox amps, and Ibanez guitars and basses. The track was not named at the time of posting, and keeps its original name, meaning that it was recorded on Sept 28, 2014.

The track is enriched with a live lead from a Roland SH-101, that heard near 2:45, of the playing time.

The album title is written from the point of the believers, that everything is calm and cool, because what God said has then come to pass. Seeing that this was as expected, there is a calm sense of peace and security, because the certainty of the Lord is being fulfilled before their eyes.

The track is designed for meditation and relaxation, upon, where it is beneficial to think about the hope that is far ahead, rather than what is going on right now. The calm believer, is aware of this, and steadies themselves for the rocky road, that leads to the day of peace.

It is this concept, that the believer does not recognize that they are exempt from danger, but that they will be protected, or guided through it. The idea of being prepared for an adverse situation is not so common in this day and age. Though in some corporate or government ways this policy might vaguely exist, this concept is relatively foreign when it is concerned with an individuals scope.

It might seem foreign to look for protection in a time of distress, which is what leads many people to panic, worry and fear, and it is those emotions which turn into actions, that cause much of the turmoil and distress in life to begin with.

Learning the possibility of options and outcomes coupled with enough self-control to seek some wisdom and guidance, is a step to a doorway of peace and a fulfillment of needs being met. The ability to restrain the actions, based on underlying motives, where one is aware enough to distinguish whether one is acting in peace, or worry, or anxiety, from a place of panic, or of sound mind, is a major difference in the outcomes of life that you can expect, since they are often fueled by this simple point of view.

A simplicity of change in the most critical moments of a stressful situation, can bring an enormous amount of peace and comfort, no matter the amount of adversity that one may face. This concept is highly regarded as the ability to change perspective, or to change one’s hope about what is actually possible and even achievable. Be well, and take care my friend.

I have put together some preview tracks. I am about to publish 16 albums, from content that was created between 1997-2014. For the next batch of music tracks, they will feature PREVIEW on the splash screen, and so that means that this track, is one song of an album-in-progress. The track may or may not be in its final mastered form. During this preview promotion, you will get to hear a good many different styles that I produced over the years, and will get a feeling for what is coming down the pipe. All the songs are copyrighted their original content year, and the albums will be formally published in 2015. Once published I will update links on the videos to the iTunes and Amazon, and other places that they music will be available. If you would like to use the music for commercial purposes, you can contact me, and we can talk about your needs and find something that works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lMtSKNUn5c

Onitod – These Paths Are Holy [ Album: Only With God ]

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These Paths Are Holy, is a classic EDM ( Electronic Dance Music ) selection, that is full of beautiful vintage and analog sounds, that paint a picture in your ears.

This track focuses more on analog modular synths. The sounds come to form an ethereal atmosphere which is enhanced by the eccentric use of sounds.  The variety of tones, and overtones, creates a complex mood, which is shifted by time and space.

The mysteriousness of God, is an illusion. As God’s most greatest desire is to save, and know all of mankind. Yet as we are given free-will, a value is created on the distance placed between our choices, and the holy place that the Lord stands. The choice to desire to become self-controlled, gentle, peaceful, kind, noble, and loving, is a course that sets you on a holy path itself.

When your desire is to seek the Lord, and to know Him, you find that the paths that seemed once unattainable, are filled with grace and love, to help you walk them. In fact, you even get help, and encouragement to walk more closely with God, by other believers, and also by God Himself.

To choose to go down this path, or continue, is a desire which must be enabled with intention. For without intention to commit to the desire, the desire is soon lost. Many times we say we will do something, and then loose commitment, for we had no intention to commit in the first place.

Therefore, we must first choose in our minds, and again in our hearts, to agree that this choice, the intention to commit to this desire, will in fact be what is good for us. For each of us individually. Some in their minds, not being able to come to a place of understanding, have not ever been able to achieve that level of understanding, and therefore, have not been able to see the benefits of this choice or decision.

Friend, I encourage you, that if it is in your heart to walk with God, and to know Him face to face, to know and hear from Him intimately, then I am saying to you, that it is not only possible, but a reality. If you would be willing to make changes in yourself, to fill and correct any gaps that you might have in your understanding, then you will be able to freely come to God, in a way in which you would find it hard to believe now.

Friend, I can tell you, that to walk with God is mainly a change to a perception in your mind, for you have already been walking with God, even for a long time, and yet you have not been able to identify that as God. You have been lead, and even directed, but you have not know by whom it is sourced. Friend, if you have been looking for God, I ask you to now, just accept that you have indeed found God. Accept in your heart, that you receive this, and you shall come to know a great deal more of who God is.

May you never see God as unreachable in this day and age, but see God as accessible, as a direct resource, and connection, that you are able to harness from, and bind with, to become much greater, than you could possibly become alone. Be well, and take care my friend.

I have put together some preview tracks. I am about to publish 16 albums, from content that was created between 1997-2014. For the next batch of music tracks, they will feature PREVIEW on the splash screen, and so that means that this track, is one song of an album-in-progress. The track may or may not be in its final mastered form. During this preview promotion, you will get to hear a good many different styles that I produced over the years, and will get a feeling for what is coming down the pipe. All the songs are copyrighted their original content year, and the albums will be formally published in 2015. Once published I will update links on the videos to the iTunes and Amazon, and other places that they music will be available. If you would like to use the music for commercial purposes, you can contact me, and we can talk about your needs and find something that works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDIWWylITeM

Onitod – Rebuilding Hope [ Album: Substitution ]

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Rebuilding Hope, is an uplifting Drum and Bass (DnB) styled track, that is all about hope.  The track is slow-paced at first, and then ramps up to the DnB familiar style. It is meant to rise up your spirit as you listen to the track.

The name, comes from a time in my life, where my hope was in fact, not very existent, and I was sad, and slightly depressed, I felt about the experiences in life I had gone through, and then decided to take all of that pain, and sadness and put it into a song about hope, to life my own spirit up. The result, is that when I listen to this song, my hope jumps high in my soul, and I have revived, and taken to a beautiful place, where my thoughts are traded from defeat to victory. Where my mind is focused from depression to hope, abundance, and gratefulness.

May you be filled with peace and hope, and take a step back in your life, as you listen to this track, and become relaxed by its tones of gladness, praise, hope, well-being, and luscious spirit of victory.

When you feel defeated in life, and you need your hope to be rebuilt, then I offer you hope, that your hope can be rebuilt. If you take a moment to relook at your life, and believe that you can be restored and rectified, then you will find the hope, and the way, the path, that will lead to restoration.

I have put together some preview tracks. I am about to publish 16 albums, from content that was created between 1997-2014. For the next batch of music tracks, they will feature PREVIEW on the splash screen, and so that means that this track, is one song of an album-in-progress. The track may or may not be in its final mastered form. During this preview promotion, you will get to hear a good many different styles that I produced over the years, and will get a feeling for what is coming down the pipe. All the songs are copyrighted their original content year, and the albums will be formally published in 2015. Once published I will update links on the videos to the iTunes and Amazon, and other places that they music will be available. If you would like to use the music for commercial purposes, you can contact me, and we can talk about your needs and find something that works.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LQ8rqVrtD4

“Live” Grieving

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“Live” Grieving is the process in which you are able to grieve, about someone while they are living. It is the time in which you are able to grieve in real time.

If you are dealing with cancer or a terminal illness, you know what a bleak future might look like. But the time you have now can be seen as utterly more precious.

I do not like to look at life, with the idea, that the future is one-hundred percent set in stone. Some may like that, when life is going swell, and everything is looking up. However, when a downturn in life, changes the outlook, I do not like to be trapped in a no-happy-ending-story. Therefore I choose to adopt a set of beliefs, that look for and pursue that which is opportunity, possibility, and infinite hope.

No matter how much your future may look like a dead-end, there is no better day than today, to decide that you can become something more.

I saw a family a few months ago, and they had two kids. The youngest was as healthy as could be, but the oldest was in a wheelchair completely disabled, in a sort of M.S. form. I could not take my eyes off of the family, as I looked at them, and realized that they all had a love for each other that was purely genuine. I enjoyed just sitting in the restaurant and watching them give and receive love freely.

I felt their story, as I ate my dinner, and thought about their journey as a family. I could see their love for each other in the tenderness that they treated each other with. I could see how they equally and individually loved each of their children.

I know the question, that some would ask, if your one child was born disabled, why would you have another child. But that would be ignorant to the love that this family shared. To them they were grateful for everything that the Lord had blessed them with, and because they were thankful with a grateful heart, they were able to enjoy all that they had to the most joyous peak of capacity.

To see one’s days as numbered, as I was talking with someone recently, I explained how I was more grateful to have someone pass away, with a long-term or known date of death. At least in that way, I would have had my time to say good-bye and move on, asking last minute questions, and allowing a live grieving process to take place.

I can honestly say, that some of the worst circumstances to come to mind, is the sudden death, or when you go to look up a long past friend, to find out that they died, and are no longer reachable. In these types of ways, I see them as worse as cancer, because there was no letting go. One minute someone is here, and the next they are gone forever.

Perhaps, when you are faced with a dreadful situation, you will reflect on some encouraging ways to look at your life now, and find some simple inspiration.

 

Onitod – Simple Inspiration [ Album: The Future of Music ]

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Simple Inspiration, is the notion that hard things do not have to be complicated, that not all journeys are difficult, and that perspective is everything.

If you are dealing with cancer or a terminal illness, you know what a bleak future might look like. But the time you have now can be seen as utterly more precious.

I do not like to look at life, with the idea, that the future is one-hundred percent set in stone. Some may like that, when life is going swell, and everything is looking up. However, when a downturn in life, changes the outlook, I do not like to be trapped in a no-happy-ending-story. Therefore I choose to adopt a set of beliefs, that look for and pursue that which is opportunity, possibility, and infinite hope.

No matter how much your future may look like a dead-end, there is no better day than today, to decide that you can become something more.

I saw a family a few months ago, and they had two kids. The youngest was as healthy as could be, but the oldest was in a wheelchair completely disabled, in a sort of M.S. form. I could not take my eyes off of the family, as I looked at them, and realized that they all had a love for each other that was purely genuine. I enjoyed just sitting in the restaurant and watching them give and receive love freely.

I felt their story, as I ate my dinner, and thought about their journey as a family. I could see their love for each other in the tenderness that they treated each other with. I could see how they equally and individually loved each of their children.

I know the question, that some would ask, if your one child was born disabled, why would you have another child. But that would be ignorant to the love that this family shared. To them they were grateful for everything that the Lord had blessed them with, and because they were thankful with a grateful heart, they were able to enjoy all that they had to the most joyous peak of capacity.

To see one’s days as numbered, as I was talking with someone recently, I explained how I was more grateful to have someone pass away, with a long-term or known date of death. At least in that way, I would have had my time to say good-bye and move on, asking last minute questions, and allowing a live grieving process to take place.

I can honestly say, that some of the worst circumstances to come to mind, is the sudden death, or when you go to look up a long past friend, to find out that they died, and are no longer reachable. In these types of ways, I see them as worse as cancer, because there was no letting go. One minute someone is here, and the next they are gone forever.

Perhaps, when you are faced with a dreadful situation, you will reflect on some encouraging ways to look at your life now, and find some simple inspiration.

Simple Inspiration is a song about short and sweet. Sometimes melodies last a while in your life, sometimes they are short and sweet. So no matter how long the melody lasts in your life, enjoy the one you are currently listening to.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gS-mYGrl7JU

Onitod – The Rain Will Come and Go [ Album: Looking for the Sunshine ]

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The Rain Will Come and Go, is a driving electronic track, heavy on the EDM. It uses a variety of vintage sounds to sooth and satisfy the soul. This pieces is more AB oriented, and switches back between its two themes, revolving certain parts The sounds are laced from sound sources such as the Roland TR-909, MKS-50, MKS-80, Juno-106, Juno-6, Juno-2, JV-880, Kawai K11, and many others.

This title is about understanding, that no matter who you are, poor or rich, no matter wealth, skin color, where you live in the world, how tall or short, or skinny overweight, no matter what, every one in the world goes through and has to deal with problems. Problems, challenges, and struggles are a part of human life, but we can choose how to handle and deal with those issues. We can choose to overcome them, or be overwhelmed by them.

I choose the title, because many difficulties are temporary. We may think that they last for a long time, but they are here, and then gone tomorrow. Many difficulties are not worth the time and emotion that we give them, they are not worth the effort or attention that we set aside for them. May you remember as you  go through life, no matter what you are facing, depression, sadness, hopelessness, despair, anxiety, worry, fear, panic, hesitation, self-confidence, or self-esteem, discouragement, anger, frustration, those only last so long, and then they are gone. So remember that you are free to find the positive, free to enjoy your life, free to seek better outcomes, free to seek protection and guidance from God. Just like the rain, troubles come and go.

This album is about waiting for the lull to be over. Waiting for the sun to come out again. Waiting for the break is life, for things to be less busy. For things to be more calm. Though, when that time comes, enjoy the quiet, enjoy the calm, for things get busy sooner or later.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QP3HVm8jJ5s

Onitod – On A Quest [ Album: Looking for the Sunshine ]

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On A Quest, is filled with the vintage vibe, Roland TR-707, TR-909, MKS-50, Juno-106, EMU Proteus, and Morpheus, Roland Juno-6, Juno-2, Siel, JD-990, JD-800, JV-880. This song morphs between two themes. The wanderer on a journey, looking and checking down the paths, exploring the surrounds, finding that they change as they move on. The end of the song wraps around to the beginning to complete the course, but it ends in a diffusion of sound.

Many time we are on a quest, one that turns out differently than expected. Many times the coping methods that we use to survive, are not what bring us the happiness and joy, we had once searched for. Sometimes the choices we make, take us away from where we want to go. Hope is always possible, and it is always around the corner. That corner may look cloudy, or seem distant, but trust in the Lord, and hold the course, for resolution.

Looking for the sunshine, is all about a journey, all about realizing your role in this life, and that you make choices, and you can grow in which ever direction you feed your choices. This video illustrates, how I climbed a tree, and then climbed down, because I saw something more precious at the base. Acheivement, can lead to disillusioned success, and a life less fully lived. Stay tuned for more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qV3WWooQuHo

Onitod – Making Sense of it All [ Album: Looking for the Sunshine ]

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Making Sense of it All, is an electronic piece, featuring many old vintage analog synths, including Juno-6, juno-60, Juno-1, Juno-2, U-110, U-220, P-330, Jd-800, JD-990, TR-909, among others.

This song starts out as pure confusion, and then finds resolve. Such is life, how many times we face uncertain things, and then find resolve only much later on. Press forward, and move on, and you too shall make it through this trial. Life is filled with trials, and your trials are like mine, we all face them, but we all have the opportunity to make it through, and to pass through that will is around us, or before us.

This video is an abstract video, and it coordinates with the theme. A lot of things in life do not make too much sense, and they are difficult to sort out. Dealing the cronic issues, day in and day out, is taxing, and frustrating, and for those who go through them, they are hard burdens to get a hold of. This album reflects on those struggles, and the nature of depression, going through the cronic issues, you are always hoping that there will be a day, when it ends, when what you are dealing with stops being an issue. Keep hoping, and keep looking for the sunshine, or things in your life, that you have to look forward to, and adopt a plan to be grateful for those things which you do have, and appreciate what is good in your life, that helps make it better, and can sustain your life through some long and unknown passageways.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPQvFk8SeL8

Onitod – Reconnecting [ Album: Looking for the Sunshine ]

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Reconnecting, is an electronic song, that is full of lush and rich tones from analog vintage synths. It was also recorded to sound from its own era, to preserve the old analog character it was recorded on high quality preamps, from a SoundCraft LX7 mixer, and placed through DA-88s, and other high-quality gear, to have excellent audio qualities.

Reconnecting, a track off of the depression themed album, Looking for the Sunshine, is a reminder, that once the depression passes, to reconnect with that which was once lost.

In my deepest tales, I was once at a point, where I felt very broken, and frankly, that I would never function again normal, that I had even lost my capability to love, or be loved, and that I was washed up and broken. Through a series of events, and encounters with God, I was able to rectify this frame of mind, and return to a life, where I experienced that I was not broken, and that I could be revived, and brought back to life, back to normal, back to functioning, and enjoying, and taking pleasure in the things around me.

My friends, turn arounds, are always possible, and at the point, where you believe that is possible for your life, that is the point at which you will start to see the possibility manifest before your eyes, and you yourself will change with words, that you may not even have realized or imagined in the place that you are now. If you believe you can be brought back to life, as I was, than it is certainly possible for you as well. If your desire is to experience that, then all that is needed to start that journey for you, will begin to emerge before your eyes, and then you can reconnect to the joy and happiness and pleasure, that you have not had access to all this time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aLcLsVcmyw